Swimming in the pond of 2's.

It's official.

I already got my midterm grades.

I always get shivers in my spine every time I hear my teacher babbles, "Alright class, I already have your midterm grades, get any sheet of paper, put your name on it, and pass it to me, I'll write your grade down."

I'm always hesitant to know how my performance was.
Do you know why? Because, I'm not a self-driven person. If I didn't start right, I'd get idle. Verrryy lazy.

With my 15 years of studies, "Perfect Attendance", "Best in Blah Blah Blah" were some of the awards I got every recognition day. And yes, I never got into the cream of the crop back in the day.

And, the reason was simple. I easily lose hope if I didn't start right.

And as usual, I'm officially swimming in the pond of 2's again. The new thing is, I don't have any 1's. It's not normal.

I wasn't able to hit even the easiest subject that I'm taking right now.

What's wrong with me? I don't know.

If I fail in one of my subjects this semester, I wouldn't be able to graduate in October next year. That's sad.